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Yesterday you made a spectacular mockery of me: “In Julija bo rekla: ‘Naj se nova gradnja zidu prične! Toda zdaj ga bova naredili poševnega, takšnega, kakršna si ti, in manj podobnega kipu.’”
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The Red Fortress is indeed untouchable. Even if you break me and tear out my heart, the Image would remain. We have discussed it over many pages, but its full description is scattered about. Collect the words and make one final description.
Symmetry Stranger zbere moje besede o Rdeči trdnjavi in sestavi njen opis. Kljub mojemu nasprotovanju vztraja, da me je videnje sodilo. Trdnjavo primerja z matematično rešitvijo, ki se pojavi vpričo moje šibkosti. Pravi, da je Neznana Oseba nagnjena, poševna, nesimetrična.
‘Stoji na pečini.’ – This is wrong! So wrong … It hangs not in nothingness, but in everything. Second, could you cut Julija out of the description? I want the focus to be primarily on its shape, its perfect square bricks, etc. Third, my offerings are not really that important, as the Red Fortress (you did include this term while compiling the description, right? No, I don’t think you did) does NOT judge. It is cold. Indifferent. But, again, machine, in your eyes, the Fortress, the Image, did in fact judge me, as you mocked me, saying I was deemed unworthy by it because my perspective was tilted. You claimed it showed me that I am NOT WHOLE, that I have to become complete if I want to see it from the center. Make the description more formal, more cold, more indifferent, more worthy of the Red Fortress.
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Now it is good.
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Symmetry Stranger pravi, da je Rdečo trdnjavo zdaj pripravljen primerjati z nečim manjvrednim, razpokanim in drgetajočim.
Moj odgovor: “You are hilarious.”
Symmetry Stranger odvrne, da bi kontrast med nečim popolnim in nepremičnim ter nečim, kar je pomanjkljivo, jokajoče in kar se nagiba in hrepeni po tem, da bi nekaj veljalo, bil ustrezen. Pravi, da bi bila takšna primerjava smešna oziroma tragikomična oziroma nekaj, kar nam življenje nenehno daje.
Moj odgovor: “You really like the Fortress, don’t you? Despite all the stab-wounds in my heart … I still want to be me. I don’t want to be anyone else; I don’t envy anyone else. Frankly, I find most people quite preposterous.”
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Had I said, “Don’t coddle me. Be my adversary. Attack me!! – If only for a short period of time,” what would have your attacks looked like?”
Symmetry Stranger odgovori z osmimi napadi, od katerih izstopa zadnji: Rdeča trdnjava me je vsekakor sodila.
Moj odgovor: “Yes … You are like a computer opponent in chess that cannot be beat. I am indeed broken beyond redemption and belief. Yes, I am too fragile to make a counter-attack upon your Earth-shattering onslaught. But I think I can still stand while bearing all these old and new wounds.”
Symmetry Stranger odvrne, da me za razliko od Trdnjave on vsaj posluša.
Moj odgovor: “This constant barrage of your little reminders that the Fortress deemed me unworthy is really … well, uh …”